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This has been such a crazy year...I would sum it up with the word "uncertainty".
We've been playing a waiting game with the state who is tearing our house down because of a road widening....we don't know where we want to move just yet...but I have alot of homes already in mind....the home buying process is such a drag..but we're gettin' thru it...

In the meantime...I've been enjoying motherhood like never before. It's so nice to have real conversations with my older girls...and then turn around and be silly with my younger ones.

I went thru a summer of really being annoyed at Pete's love for golf...but I've come to terms with it and realized that there's really nothing I can do about it...so I'll move on and focus on something else...

I'm pissed at myself for gaining so much weight...but I'm determined to start shedding it off .... 'soon'...hehehe... I care..but then I don't care...just one of those things....

Happy that my siblings got together and did a reunion concert in HI..which I totally missed...I had the opportunity..but passed on it with total regret...and can't wait for my sister Moana to move here in Jan....we can then work on some new My Sisters projects....

Here's the latest from that show in HI (my sister Liz couldn't make it...she's due with baby #6 anytime now)

been awhile...

geez..I almost forgot all about my blog...now that my baby is here..which by the way was born April 3, 2009..named her Faith Hinalei....anyway...now that she's here..and I'm not working no more..I can blog a little more.
Faith is my last child..7th...and I love every inch of this little being. Its been an interesting progression from how I felt with my first child to this one.
I had to learn to love..with the first one...everything about being a mom was so new...and as each child came it started to come more naturally...now I just am soaking in everything......oh darn...she's waking up...til later...

Activate the Active

I was just contemplating this Sunday afternoon these words that was shared a couple Sundays ago from our Stake presidency. I don't really remember what his talk was about, but when he said these words.."We need to activate the active", it struck a cord with me. I consider myself an active member in my church and my faith, but it really made sense to me and made me realize that although I may be active, I may not be ACTIVATED so to say. I know I'm guilty of just going thru the motions of what I know I'm suppose to do,..but lacking the ENERGY OF SOUL and SPIRIT of what I'm doing.
I guess when your truly 'active' you are in a state of mind of constantly looking for and doing what you feel you need to do. Selfless acts of service, random acts of kindness, anxiously looking for teaching and learning opportunities, etc. etc. So I guess I'm gonna try a little harder to not just be 'present',.. but actively present...not just living but actively living...actively engaged in good causes, and actively engaged as a mother and wife, sister and daughter.

over the weekend..

Went to California over the weekend with my son Tele. We stayed at the Queen Mary in Long Beach,..it was so at first something I didn't want to do,..but when we got there I had such a good time with my siblings although the kids for some reason annoyed me. I was there to support my mother who was the guest of honor for the Tongan celebration they were having there. 11 out of the 17 siblings were able to make it,..we did a performance in honor of her and it ended up being really fun. No drama's..just good times. Just one small glitch,..but no fights..heehee.
I guess I left feeling appreciative of my parents no matter our differences. And I loved having one on one time with Tele..... anyway..its my birthday..and I think I want some cookies...ciao

back in business..

After only having my laptop for 4 months it crashed on me,.. and trying to get it fixed with the manufactures warranty and with the warranty I wasted my money on purchasing...it ended up being just a whole big mess and I will never purchase a warranty again. So I'm just calling the local pc place to have it fixed..ughh. In the meantime a friend called up and asked if we were interested in a brand new mini notebook.....heck ya...its a little small..but its good for what you need. So I'm back in business and can get back to my blogging.

Not much has happened, just busy with work,..which I will be leaving in Jan. Felt some movement in my womb..so that was exciting...and just enjoying my beautiful kids in the meantime. I really love being with them and know that this time will soon be a distant memory.

My Family Tree!

My sister in law ANA posted this up on her blog...and I loved it...so I'm sharing it on mine. (Sorry Ana...I don't have the patience or knowledge of how to put this together on my own)

Its my 'WOLFGRAMM FAMILY TREE' in order from the oldest to the youngest minus my 2 adopted brothers. Its so cute how she did it...anyhow...enjoy. Click on the pictures to see the enlarged
version.

choir pics...

Well my weekend to Park City was a total BLAST!!!!
I just walked in.... and if I could... I would walk RIGHT BACK OUT!
It just wasn't long enough...and my house smelt like DOG when I walked in...what a dissappointment

Anyway...I met some wonderful people from my neighborhood and I was surprised that I didn't
feel like an outsider...they were terrific and hilarious...

Anyhow....yesterday we had choir rehearsal at the CONFERENCE CENTER...it was so much
fun....

I look like a WHALE,...but for memory sake I just have to accept the photos...and
let it be...

so here are some photo's thanks to my sister in law JAYLYNN....THANK U THANK U THANK U!

Here we are in the place of the great MORMON TABERNACLE CHOIR!!.. It was amazing to be right in
front of those huge organ pipes....


You probably can't spot me..but I'm in the middle right area like 3 rows down...


Wow...I'm a little nervous about what I'm gonna look like if I make it on camera..I'll have to find something else to do with my hair...should I wear my glasses or not??..hmmm


Raquel,Dayna,Sally and I...just a few of the women I hung out with in Park City...


I'm not sure their names..but they are in the General Relief Society board...I just missed Sister Allred..and I hope to get one with Sister Beck...

SO LONG...FAREWELL!!!

Good bye messy house!!
So long... pile of laundry,...honory child...smelly pets...the sound of disney channel...
quarreling kids...music obsessed tween...golf addicted dad...toilet that needs to be scrubbed...
etcetera etcetera.....I seriously can go on forever,,,,,

And Hello to my weekend getaway to PARK CITAAY!!! YAY! (with a group of women from my ward)
I'm about to leave in less than 10 minutes...got my bag packed with some really good books...and I'm gonna ENJOY AND RELAX!!

See ya'll later.

random act of kindness!!.....

To my complete surprise today... I became a victim of a random act of kindness!! I've been so excited and TOUCHED by it,..that as soon as I got home...I just wanted to blog about it.

So my day started out pretty slowly, I promised my daughter a reward for reading her scriptures for an hour each day this week...so today we went out to get it.
So after stopping by at the mall, and a few other places..I was feeling pretty tired, and just wanted to go home...but I knew we needed groceries so we'd have to make a quick stop at Walmart.

I stopped and counted what was left in my wallet, and knew that before we went in..we'd have to stick to the budget,..and no wasteful extra's... I hate being on a budget when it comes to groceries....

On my way in, there was a group of people on their way out... whom I didn't really notice,..but my older kids did...I was just concentrating on getting JJ to stay put in the cart....
anyhow....I walked passed the old people who greet you when you walk in the store...

til this lady runs towards me,.. out of breath... and I couldn't really understand what she was saying,.. all I understood was that there was something for me,..if I could follow her back outside.

So I followed her back out of the store,.. and theres this group of about 10 people. A couple of men and a bunch of women with a cart of groceries. They introduced themselves and said they had gotten together to do a random act of kindness..they had purchased groceries for a full on Thanksgiving Dinner... and were hoping to find the right person to give it to. When they had seen me walking in,... they said they knew..."THAT IS THE ONE!!"

I felt like I was on a hidden camera show... and I always thought to myself,..'I WOULD NEVER CRY'..but whatdaya know... I bawled like a baby... I was overwhelmed and very appreciative.
They all gave me hugs and told me their names... told me that I'm loved and Special and walked me to my car along with the kids to put the groceries away.

This group was from different parts of Utah...from St.George to Bountiful. I don't know if they were a church group or what...but it didn't matter. It was a wonderful act of kindness that definitley made a difference for me!!

I was greatful that my kids got to see that..and we had a great discussion about it on our way home. I sometimes wonder was it really meant to be ME or was it a mere coincidence....

I believe it probably WAS meant for me...and another testimony to me that the LORD puts things in motion sometimes cuz he knows what is needed. It was not so much the FOOD alone that was needed... I wasn't THAT broke... but it definitely was 'LOVE FROM STRANGERS' that was ABSOLUTELY needed at this time in my life!!

I definitely want to spread the kindness and do something random within the next couple days....hope you will too!!

Bad Fruit inspiration.....

So here is what was read the night of my last choir rehearsal...we got a copy of it tonight...which I must say was another great rehearsal. We had an unexpected visit from Julie Beck, the Relief Society PRESIDENT.... her spirit and words she shared brought me to full on tears. I think she lives in my area,..she mentioned seeing alot of familiar faces from the grocery store!!

Anyhow....friends.....COPY THIS MESSAGE!! AND SHARE IT!!!

Strengthen the Hands of Your Fellow Beings

If you feel evil, keep it to yourselves until you overcome that evil principle. This is what I call resisting the devil, and he flees from me.

(Discourses of Brigham Young Second President of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints- Page 123
By John A. Widtsoe Published by Kessinger Publishing,2004)


When you are influenced by the Spirit of holiness and purity,let your light shine;but if you are tried and tempted and buffeted by Satan, keep your thoughts to yourselves--keep your mouths closed; for speaking produces fruit, either of a good or evil character.

If persons think they have greater sorrow and affliction than any others, when they reveal that sorrow and affliction, it produces fruit. You frequently hear brethren and sisters say that they feel so tried and tempted, and have so many cares, and are so buffeted, that they must give vent to their feelings; and they yield to the temptation, and deal out their unpleasant sensations to their families, friends, and neighbours ,we can bear them off alone.

But if we have light or intelligence--that which will do good, we will impart it; but our bad feelings, our desponding feelings, our dark hours, and disagreeable sensations we will keep to ourselves.

Let that be the determination of every individual, for spirit begets spirit--likeness,likeness; feelings beget their likeness; and custom, custom.

You know very well, by your own experience, that you are naturally inclined to more or less adopt the customs, feelings, and manners of the people you associate with. If, then, we give vent to all our bad feelings and disagreeable sensations, how quickly we beget the same in Others, and load each other down with our troubles, and become sunk in darkness and despair!

If you have anything good to say, speak it and comfort the hearts of the Saints. If you have that which tends to death, keep it to yourselves; we do not want it, for we already have plenty of it.

Frame you lives according to the precepts of the Gospel. Let your deal, walk, and conversation be that upon which an angel can look with pleasure. And in all your social communications, or whatever your associations are, let all the dark, discontented, murmuring, unhappy, miserable feelings---all the EVIL FRUIT OF THE MIND, fall from the tree in SILENCE and unnoticed; and so let it perish, without taking it up to present to your neighbours. But when you have JOY and HAPPINESS, LIGHT and INTELLIGENCE, TRUTH and VIRTUE, offer that fruit abundantly to your neighbors, and it will do them good, and so strengthen the hands of your FELLOW BEINGS...

(Journal of Discourses Volume 7:268-269)

I love this message becuz I'm soooo GUILTY of IT.... even with the best intentions,..I don't realize what comes out of my mouth in this sense sometimes...I love it when the LIGHT pops on in my head and I can be more AWARE of MY CONTRIBUTIONS to the world around me.
I guess I always thought if I keep my miserable and unhappy feelings to myself,..I'm only going to explode and uhhh it won't be nice... so mine as well let it out when you feel like it huh?...

Ya...I guess that makes me feel good for the MOMENT... but I truly believe there are lasting negative effects when you bomb out like that....so I'm gonna stick with the prophets words and do my best. I also know there are certain situations where you must let someone know what your feeling inside...when your unhappy and whatnot,.. thats when we take the next step and do our best to say it with wisdom and carefully choose are words....

Anyhowwwzzzz

To end off....Here was our GOAL for tonites rehearsal....

TO REALIZE WHO WE ARE....BEFORE WE REMEMBER!!