JUNE....

alright..so alot of people around me..especially my kids and husband have heard my constant complains about my weight..so I figure..if I blog about it..maybe I'll get my butt up and really start doing something. I won't go into details but I'm gettin' serious...June is coming up...and I don't like starting things on off days..it either has to be a Monday...or the first day of a month..I don't know..its just me...I've got alot of sacrifices to do...if you read this...tell me something that'll keep me going...k...

6th grade graduation!

I really feel like it was just yesterday when the thought of Olimpia leaving elementary was like wayyy out in the future....now its here,.and tomorrow is her graduation ceremony. I promised I would straighten and curl her hair for the occasion....she's so bubbly and cute. Yesterday we played some cards and I was about to put in a cartoon for my little Jj...then Olimpia gasped,"watching this is like pure agony!" Pure Agony....Im not really used to that kind of vocabulary out of limps (her nickname),..we all cracked up for awhile.....
I guess with the realization of my girls all grown up..soon to be teens...I'm really soaking in,..just everything.. with ALL the kids..all the stages...all the little things,.. soon to be distant memories...It really is sad to think I will never see whatever cute thing or even not so cute thing they do this very day...ever again...
PIC:(Courtesy Jaylynn Wolfgramm) Olimpia and Letitia @ graduation party!!

Nadira...

I was just randomly thinking of her today...the most cliche saying 'time flies' is really an understatement...It has whirled by..and here she is just beautiful and in every way just what I pictured her. Today or actually yesterday she decided to let her hair down...(she's pretty tomboyish and always has her hair up in a pony tail)..but today she let her hair down...even spent 'time' in the bathroom fixing it...she hesitantly came out...and there was my beautiful girl,.with her hair all made up...more great than that was the fact that she left it down the WHOLE day!!
She's always been a beauty to ME...but it was my 'mother joy' moment to see that SHE finally see's it. She's almost 12, smart, sensitive, and extremely sarcastic. I'll post pics of her when she lets me...hehe

Memorial Day....Grandma

Dont be fooled by this 'little' woman(about 4 11')...we use to call her our little 'troll' cuz by the end of the day she'd have some major hair fly aways and looked just like one,...like my grandpa,..she is the most AMAZING woman I probably will EVER know. Mother of 18 children,...and not ONE stretch mark on her belly...she was sweet,..but one tough, devoted mother and grandma. Her daily routine for many many years consisted of waking up early in the morning,.read her scriptures,.off to the temple..back home for a snack..read again her scriptures,..back to the temple,... home for another snack...and again off to the temple...and back home for dinner....she went 3 to 4 times a day,..everyday...unless she was with one of her grandchildren (she has over 100) or with one of her great-grandchildren (she has over 200)....my dream is to be like her!
SALOTE(Charlotte) WOLFGRAMM 1915-2007 (Buried the same day as Gordon B. Hinckley)

Grandpa

Now this is thee most AMAZING man I EVER have known...just thinking of him alot lately and appropriate for memorial day! He served missions thru out his life in the most trying ways..,had the gift of miracles...his faith was tremendous, his love for everyone,.unconditional..., everytime I visited, he would say 'Are you happy?'.. and look me in the eye, squeeze my hand and just smile..he told me how to be happy thru his smile and embrace..and with every visit a different lecture so to say,.just thru his smile....I have totally felt the loss of this most inspirational, awe inspiring soul who has ever lived....one of the unknown heroes of our day! I see him in my dreams often:)
IOHANI OTTO WOLFGRAMM R.I.P. 1911-1997

Nesia Found Her Voice

My sister Mali's baby girl Nesia
We miss you! (living in FL)

tough times

Well..we all know its tough times nowdays..and I sure am feeling the pinch...much more the squeeze. So I decided I'm gonna need to work,..and real soon,..I didn't graduate from Highschool...I didn't really drop out...I just had to help out the family and was pulled out of school in the 11th grade,to do the family music thing...Ive held some odd jobs here and there since then...I don't have alot of experience,.and I'm not really a people person....so I'm a little worried....and since its summer,.I can't work days,..need to be with the kids..so i'm looking at graveyards.....soooo...wish me good luck! I'm off looking after this holiday weekend.
I'll post new pics as soon as I get myself a new laptop..can't load any new pics onto my husbands work laptop.....ciao

sweet n sour

Its an interesting weekend...another of my siblings is going thru the temple...getting sealed to be exact with her husband and 2 handsome boys! This picture sums up how I feel about not being able to go inside....AGAIN. And I always have mixed emotions when some family members come
especially when I'm not in the mood to play like everything is cool........
I think I woke up on the WRONG side of the bed today...and with the change of weather,..getting really warm...I brought out some of my summer clothes from last year,..and uhhhh....yep...they didn't fit.....I'm just the BIGGEST I've ever been...and its definitely had an impact in my 'little world 'today...I just can't focus on anything. But for those who know me,..I'm an eternal OPTIMIST...so I'm gonna sulk in my misery, and feel depressed TODAY....and tomorrow will be a NEW day and I should be good by Sunday!

My brother Mika..

Well, my precious brother Mika and his wife Jaylynn got endowed today...although I wasn't able to go in,.I soaked in the time without any kids...just all by my lonesome,..walked around Temple square,..it was wierd being alone...but I enjoyed it! I was hoping to get inspired and get into deep thought,..but none of that happened...I just walked around like a zombie,..I brought along some good church books..ensign..and some variety puzzles,.hoping to dig into it while I waited..but that turned into just an annoying extra bag to carry along. I didn't think of my kids or ANYthing really....is there something wrong with me?..dang...anyway...the magic happened when my brother came out..along with other family members...to hear him say his 'experience only confirmed his testimony'...tugged my heart strings...and made me feel like I need to get my butt worthy to go...I'm missin' out! Anyway..my brother is the world to me...I watched him alot when he was a baby. His twin sister always got the attention cuz she was sooo cute and chubby..and Mika was handed over to me all the time so they could hold HER...not that he wasn't cute...just not as cute as Mali...while growing up I just always understood him and vice versa ,we've always had that connection.. Anyway to see him come this far...and hear him talk about his experience...it was great...he even called me later and wouldn't stop talking about it!
His wife Jaylynn is also an amazing soul! We think alot alike...she's the one who shot the photo's of me in this blog...I don't like taking pictures...and I don't have alot of myself...but I agreed to be her guinea pig now that she is dabbling into doing photography professionally...she wanted some mystical or darker themed shots..so I was like...dark?..mystical?..I can do that....dark n mystical means I don't have to look perfect, I can look depressed and messed up...I'm good at that...oh and thanks for photo programs, she can take 10 pounds off me...I'll pose anytime!

starting slow...

welll,..I think i got music happy when putting together my playlist....heehee. Anyway, will be posting pics of my beeeeeutiful kids soon....but I'll have to tell you,..everyone around me it seems is into photography...or taking pictures of their kids. I think since my parents NEVER took pics of me as a child..(I only have 1 baby pic of myself,..I think I'm 6mths)....I have become slack in that area as well. And I see their precious faces everyday,..and I never think to pick up my camera.....hopefully this blog will help me change my ways...

ummm...

Alright,....here I am,..and trying to figure this out on my hubby's work laptop,.hoping he doesn't get in trouble....my laptop completely burnt out and I just haven't had the money to buy a new one! Anyway,... after seeing some of my friends blogs...decided to start my own....still trying to figure how this all works...